Fear Of Having A Seizure

Unfortunately a few months ago I began having seizures once again. My last grand mal was about a month ago. I'm pretty sure these were brought on by stress of the holidays, the 3 year anniversary of my step mother and fathers passing, as well as work related issues.

I often feel like I've let my husband and children down when I have a seizure after an extended break from this monster. Unable to drive, exhausted, and often injured. These past few episodes were much different than anything before. I have finally began experiencing an "aura". So I know that one is coming on. However I instantly become paralyzed, for a lack of better terms, and am unable to yell for help. 

I believe this disorder is finally catching up with me emotionally. In the past i would get upset and angry after experiencing a seizure. Now it is as if I'm afraid to leave my bed with the fear of falling or having one in front of my 5 year old. 

I believe I may try some essential oils to see if they help with the stress and anxiety. My sleep patterns are also crazy. I began not being able to sleep at night. I fall asleep around 5am and wake around noon. I'm not sure what is contributing to that.  

I'm curious to know if anyone living with epilepsy, especially grand mals, has tried a change in their diet and had luck with reducing seizures. If so, please reach out. I would love to hear your experience.